But half way up I had a panic attack - I've never ever had anything like it in my life. I've clients that are coming to me in my naturopathic clinic who suffer from anxiety and panic attacks. Well wow I now understand. Would of preferred not to have experienced that to understand what it is like...but I am sure it will make me a better naturopath from the experience.
I've never liked stairs you can see through... I remember as a kid falling through the steps at Marine land and my dad grabbing my arm and pulling me up and being very scared. Half way up the stairs I went dizzy, hot, spinning in my head, wanting to pass out and vomit. Like... Not the best place for this to happen. Brent asked if I was ok and I replied NO! It took all of my effort to ground myself and keep climbing one step at a time with both arms hugging the hand rail. Hard to talk to oneself into overcoming such random out of the blue terror.
I made it to the top and Brent turned around to see me sprawled out face down at the top. I'd only been watching the steps and hit my head on the hand rail on the last step which made me fall over.. "What are you doing down there"... I burst into tears more out of shame than anything. So unlike me not to keep it together,
However - A few good deep breaths and I came right.
Abbey was HORRIFIED that I packed me old comfies to take away... She said I looked like a 3 year old had dressed me - purple/pink top, red pants and orange shoes,,,, GRIN I love colour. Hey have you seen this mum who lets her 3 year old pick out her clothes? I showed it to Abbey and she said the 3 year old has better tastes than I do - giggle,
View from the top of the light house,
I put our selfie photo on Instagram - Abbey is teaching me Instagram,,, let me know if you are on it.
Me thinks it is the very last time I will go to a lighthouse - BUT I DID IT...
PS Brent took these photos for me (He had plenty of time) - there was no way I was a gonna look,